Is this real?

Like I said yesterday in class - I'm in deepsh*t. What was I thinking? I enjoy the little things and didn't think of the consequences. Maybe I enjoyed too much. I never thought it would come to this and lead me to such uneasy situations. Have I gone astray? I should have known better not to wait around. Why do I put myself in these situations? Sometimes I keep pushing myself even though I can't take it all. Well, I'll just hope for the best and it will lead me to the right faithful direction. Man..